​PREPARE ME A BODY
HEBREWS 10:5
Prepare me a body that I may dwell, the Lord asked. The Lord must have full reign seeing that He is King. He asked David if He was indeed going to build Him a house of cedar seeing that He have dwelt in tents for so long. The son of man have nowhere to lay His head and heave full reign. Many say they want the Lord near and not far off, then a body must be prepared for Him. Many desire strategies for victory and the strategy is surrender. Surrender. Surrender. Will there be anyone who will relinquish full surrender to Christ? One body that He won’t have to keep knocking at the door saying let me in, let me through, let me speak. In tents He had full reign. Will you prepare a body without hesitation and without quenching where He can move when He wants to move and sup when He wants to sup? There must be offerings of sweet savor of praise and worship to the King, but a body must be prepared, one where He can pour when He wants to pour. He must have full reign, seeing that He is King. A vessel to move freely is His desire. Will you honor His petition? It’s all about the glory of God!

​Is Your Gospel Hid?
II Corinthians 4:3
But if your gospel is, it is hid to them that are lost.
Mark 4:21-23
And He said unto them, Is a candle brought to be put under a bushel, or under a bed? And not to be set on a candlestick? For there is nothing hid that shall not be manifested; neither was anything kept secret, but that it should come abroad.
If any man have ears to hear, let him hear.
It is important now more than ever that we let our light shine. If we claim to be believers then our lifestyle should reflect such. When we hide our gospel then it is hid to them that are lost. The saints of God are not in the church. We must go beyond the walls of the church and the walk of life we have should speak for us. The gospel isn’t something that should be kept secret with our actions. The Lord stated that if we deny Him then He will deny us. We sometimes deny Him with our actions. He is not a God that is mocked. We shouldn’t be ashamed of the task at hand. We must boldly carry our cross completely, showing everything that Christ stands for. Everything we do is for the mission of reconciliation and to glorify God.

Where is the Glory?
How do we get to the place where we are restoring Godly reverence? The Spirit of God is Holy and we must treat it as being Holy. We must give recognition for Christ’s true divinity and Holiness. We must reverence His presence, we must reverence the people who come bearing His Holy name. We must reverence the sanctuary and His pulpit. The Word says no flesh shall glory in His presence. So we must pierce the flesh and allow the Spirit to have complete reign. We are a royal priesthood and having been grafted in we must be completely one with Christ. The name of Christ must remain sanctified and hallowed. We must recognize that all things are possible but what hinders the possibility of the move of His divine power for healing, deliverance, or miracles, signs, and wonders is, “is there complete glory given to the Most High?” Who is getting the glory? Acts 14:11-15 We must not give our glory to the people or place people on a pedestal. All glory must be given to Christ. We must teach the children the reverence as well. If they dress up for debutante balls, homecoming, proms, and the like then surely they can reverence the Most High with the proper attire in the sanctuary. Exodus 19:12 The Lord makes known certain boundaries for the people to respect the power of God. If you touch that mountain… If He established that reverent fear then, we must continue to reverence and teach that same respect of Him now. His Spirit is powerful. He is Holy and there are consequences, even death if He’s not reverenced accordingly. Though He condescends to our lowly estate because He loves us, we must lift Him up. He said, “If I be lifted up, I will draw all men.” He must be lifted up for our own sake. When we lift Him up in our true praise, we kill the flesh and release the glory of God.

​What Have You Learned?
An Apostle friend would often allow me to come to him and vent about things I experienced in the “wilderness”. I would get frustrated often and come to him with spiritual temper tantrums and after I was done with all the ranting, he’d sit in his chair and in a smooth, calm voice he’d ask, “Now, what have you learned?” I’ve learned so many things but to sum it all up I’d say I’ve learned the Lord’s names… I’ve learned simply to be quiet sometimes and listen. I’ve learned to simply watch and pray. I’ve learned to praise my way through in times of hurt, in times of anger, in times of struggle, in times of misunderstandings, in times of disobedience, in times of silence, in times of perplexity. I’ve learned to descend to the lowly estate. I’ve learned how to be abased and how to abound…I’ve learned that Christ is the Almighty. He is the Alpha, the Omega….the God whom the Heaven’s cannot contain…He is the God who swears on Himself! I’ve learned, I’ve learned, I’ve learned the purified Love of Christ. He doesn’t stop pressing. He doesn’t stop fighting. He doesn’t stop praying. He doesn’t stop hoping. He doesn’t let go! It’s ever abounding from faith to faith, from glory to glory. He is truly the God of more than enough!!!!

​Greater Love hath no man….He laid down His life!
 
Greater Love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends. John 15:13
Who can know, understand, or comprehend the depths of His love? What do you really consider as a criteria for a friend? He called us friends even before the foundations of the world, He knew us and called us friends.
How do we live up to these expectations? How do we become the friends He died for us to be? What’s a good friend? Someone you can talk to about anything. Someone who listens intently without conditions no matter the day or time. One who has righteous judgement by the Spirit. One of understanding. One who is there whether times are good or bad, inconvenient or not. They will pray with you and for you.
How did He call us friends even before we were friends? What does it mean to lay down your life? Putting natural emotions aside. Putting natural feelings aside. Looking beyond the present situation seeing who you will be…if you’re obedient! Loving us enough to encourage us to seek the more and to go the extra mile. Knowing that there is a process to righteousness. Knowing that many will mock and reject you. Rom 5:19 For as by one man’s disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous. Obedient enough to love…obedient enough to pray…obedient enough to praise…obedient enough to speak.
What does it really mean to take up your cross? We’re doing it for Jesus. We’re doing it for our friend! He set the standard so we know it was possible…to be a true friend seeing things in the beginning and seeing the makeover in the end.

​Can any good thing come out of Nazareth? John 1:46….come and see

Before man saw you Jesus saw you and began writing your story!
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I was born into a jacked up family situation. Both sides were pretty jacked up. I didn’t call it that, Jesus did. I recognized something wasn’t right at a young age. I didn’t fit in. I didn’t want to. I was different…set aside. There was nobody I knew that was like me. I didn’t have very many friends. I was often an outsider looking in…analyzing…observing. Though I didn’t have very many natural connections, I had a spiritual connection and that’s what really mattered. As I grew up I often wondered if any good could come of me. I didn’t have a strong relationship with my mother and my dad wasn’t around very much either. I was called nothing by my stepdad and it seemed like I was treated like nothing as well. I had big dreams but I didn’t have much self-confidence. The Lord showed me He has the final say. The enemy will try to destroy what the Lord is building in you. We must lean and depend completely on Christ. He is our refuge and our fortress (if we allow Him to be). What the enemy has meant for our bad Jesus has already turned around in the Spirit and made for our good. No weapon formed against us shall prosper. We are more than conquerors. Sometimes we look at our present situation and wonder what good can come of it. We wonder why the Lord even created us. When you look around and examine all those jacked up situations that surround you, you should say “now wonder why the Lord created me! I’m born to bring Glory to the name of the Lord Jesus in the midst of a jacked up situation!” He will use you to show the people that He is still a healer and a present help in the time of trouble. He’s still a deliverer and He’s still the God of all mercy. He will be glorified in a situation where man says it’s impossible. Then Jesus comes in and shows that by His Spirit and because of His blood all things are possible. Faith moves God and He is that much more motivated to work in situations that seem impossible to man. I’m living proof of a person born into a jacked up situation who Jesus took by the hand, placed on the potter’s wheel, and created something out of what SEEMED like nothing. If you knew how jacked up I really was, then it would be that much easier to believe He will do the same for you! They asked the questions in the scripture and Jesus answered with evidence!
“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen”. Heb 11:1

                                                                                          THE TEARING DOWN
Many don't realize that before we go completely into ministry there is a tearing down process to build our character and humility in Christ. This is my testimony. 
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I wasn’t a pastor yet…at least the Lord hadn’t made mention of it. I was a mortgage broker. I loved helping people and I love math, so doing mortgages put the two into one, helping people get into homes and accounting seemed to be the best of both worlds (it was also very lucrative). Though it may not have seemed that way at first glance, I wasn’t a people person. I didn’t carry a bubbly, outgoing, or charming personality. I’ve always been shy, reserved, and somewhat standoffish. Because of this, the Lord has been the driving force making things work behind the scenes and I was content. Most of the work that I did was by telephone with little interaction and most clients rarely saw me until closing.
Because of my passion for patient and nursing care I also signed a contract with the U.S. Air Force Reserves. This would fulfill my desires for emergency medicine practice which I would be obligated to once a month, allowing me to maintain balance doing the things I loved (math as well as science), without getting burned out and overwhelmed.
One day I had reached a tipping point. I was co-owner of a mortgage business headed to military training. Financially things were going well but it was a front for what was really going on emotionally and spiritually.
I was in a bad relationship. It was a relationship that started all wrong. It started on a lie…a lie that I told. I led the fellow to believe that I was a certain age that I was not. So the initial foundation was not built with trust. I didn’t trust that He would want me if He knew and He didn’t trust me once He eventually found out. The relationship was one of comfort and convenience. We settled. However, I wasn’t happy…I wasn’t being fulfilled. Something was missing.
This was a relationship of chase. Though He was my natural husband at the time, He wasn’t spiritually ordained for me. I chased him for years hoping we would get past the lie I told but it didn’t happen. I thought that I did everything I could to get the man to love me but the love wasn’t there.
So back to that day…. The tipping point. I was a believer. I went to church often. I prayed prayers (though they were selfish) and I sought the Lord. I loved helping people but I hated myself. I thought I wasn’t good enough. One night I finally broke down and cried out to the Lord with my whole heart. “What’s wrong with me?” I cried. “What’s wrong with me, Lord?”
For the first time in my life I received a response from the Lord. It was prophetic in nature. “Nothing is wrong with you.” The Lord replied. He went on to tell me the things I was dealing with spiritually and that I needed to surrender completely and seek Him more. I allotted time to read my word and study daily. He, in the meantime blessed me with a new relationship that He ordained. We would study the word together, pray together, praise and worship together and seek the Lord together. Jesus being the Chief Cornerstone, this was a foundation and relationship built (for success) to last forever.
I soon went off to military training. What I initially thought was a natural wound up having more spiritual revelation than I anticipated. I left somewhat naïve but returned home more spiritually aware and more rooted and grounded than ever before.
I immediately got back to work catching up on a lot of things that lacked while I was gone. Spiritually I grew leaps and bounds but naturally my world came “tumbling down”. Suddenly the “successful” mortgage company had business which started to dwindle, loans weren’t closing. Employees had to be laid off (let go) and eventually we were out of business. The home we were blessed with had gone to “short sale” and we needed to move! I was seeking the Lord, acknowledging Him in all of my ways…yet that question came to mind again. “What am I doing wrong?” I thought. The Lord told me I was in a season of tearing down. He used those exact words but I thought it was because I had done wrong in the past and though He had forgiven me, I needed to pay the consequences for my actions. Times weren’t easy but there was comfort because my Father told me what was going on and that He was allowing it to happen.
In the midst of this tearing down, the Lord kept giving me the unction to speak His word. I was excited about the things the Lord was doing in my life. In the natural sense I was homeless for a while staying in hotels and sometimes with a relative. However, I was seeking the face of God and He was daily making Himself known to me more and more. The insecurities that I had about someone loving me began to dwindle because Jesus loved me and began to show me the depths of His love which couldn’t be matched by the world. It was pure. It was complete. Nights I’d wake up with laughter and praise uncontrollably. It was a joy that cannot be described or explained.
One day the Lord told me that He had a ministry for me. The lord told me I was a pastor and that I’d get my start from the radio. He said that I’d lay hands on the sick and they’d recover. I was excited but I must admit that what I saw with my natural eye and what He told me were two different things.
I wasn’t a preacher. I wasn’t born into a lineage of ministers. I had no natural friends or spiritual friends to go to. I didn’t have the personality for it. There was no flock to see with the natural eye. This is a weighty call and I didn’t really like people enough.
However, I was obedient and started doing radio broadcasts live every day. Meanwhile, we were hiding our vehicle form the repo man and hoping for a miracle to pay it. I was skilled and yet I couldn’t get a job anywhere. To top it off I had a new born baby to care for. The Lord really does have a sense of humor. Every week we had yard sales in hopes that we would sell enough to cover radio expenses, hotel, and diapers.
Family members thought I was crazy. They though I did something wrong. They thought my husband was a dead beat because I was in such a situation. This new faith walk was somewhat overwhelming but I had to trust and put my faith into action leading by example. I already had two strikes against me to start with being that I was a woman and I was young.
The fifteen minute broadcasts that we did weren’t a great “profound” word as some would hope, but I spoke the Truth and I shared my testimony. It seemed as if there wasn’t anyone who understood or could relate. People who heard our broadcasts didn’t call for prayer requests or praise reports. There didn’t seem to be a natural support system but the Lord was with us and all I had was faith and obedience. I knew things would get better.
We found a small space for rent that I wanted so that we could hold worship service. At the time I thought it was the right thing to do. I advertised on the radio. I printed flyers and brochures. No one showed up for services, so we preached to the walls until that final day we had to clear out our things because we couldn’t pay for the building any longer. I was a pastor of the Most High, but with all of the circumstances and situations it didn’t seem like it at all. Most nights I cried out to the Lord while somehow gathering the strength to praise Him. I learned that He was my refuge and my strong tower. I soon found out the difference between knowing something and having the actual experience for yourself.
One late night I finally managed to fall asleep. An angel came unto me and suddenly I had the urge to write. I wrote and I wrote. I couldn’t stop writing. All day and all night I wrote for two weeks straight. This birthed template for the book “Pick Up Your Weapons and Fight!” I went from writing to typing as all of my experiences along with the Word of God started to come together and the Lord’s purposes for my life started to make sense. I continued to write and speak the Word even though it seemed that no one cared to hear it, especially coming from me.
The Lord led my husband, Demetrius and I, to fellowship with different ministries. I learned more and more about humility and about what takes place behind the scenes. I wasn’t religious. I wasn’t traditional… I didn’t want to be. Something about me was different. I didn’t want the same ol’, same ol’ service. I really wanted to help change peoples’ lives I wanted the true restoration. I wanted complete healing and deliverance to take place. I wanted miracles, signs, and wonders to transform and renew the Lord’s people. I wanted the true pouring of the Spirit. I wanted people to see what I saw. I wanted them to encounter what I encountered…His Holy Spirit…His power…His depth…His love. How could I make these desires a reality? How could I implement and show forth so great a love? Was anyone listening? There’s so much passion but where do you put it when it begins to overflow? It was like “fire shut up in my bones”.
The churches my husband and I attempted to fellowship with didn’t particularly care for us too much. They said I was out of order. They also mentioned I wasn’t a pastor because I was a woman. There was a great bit of pressure to join ministries and have them “cover me”, as if man could cover anything. We quickly moved on brushing the “dust” off our feet in those places we weren’t wanted. Because I was in my hometown I knew we really didn’t have a chance of being really accepted so we decided to be obedient to the Lord’s nudge and start fresh in Alabama. We determined to start again while still maintaining the radio broadcast as the Lord instructed us to do.
I knew we needed to make a move but I must admit that the last place that I thought of was Alabama. It wasn’t in our thoughts or plans at all. Nonetheless, my husband and prophet advised that it was where the Lord wanted us and so in obedience we went.
The churches and the people seemed to be the same. I wanted to compel men and women to come to Christ, but I was encountered with religion instead of God-fearing reverence and heart-felt desire for more. I grew discouraged and my desire for the task at hand began to dwindle. I didn’t want this job! Where was the drawing? Was there anyone the Lord would use me to save? It was a lonely walk. The zeal that I thought I had begun to diminish. Then in the midst of it all, the Lord said that our tearing down was over and to go forth and build. Build what? I didn’t want to do it. I wasn’t the right one for the job and I was upfront willing to admit it.
There was so much that needed to be done and there was so much that I desired to do for the Lord. I was overwhelmed by the great need to establish a spiritual foundation in others where Jesus was the Chief Cornerstone, but I didn’t know where to start. Who was listening? I was obedient but sometimes the spiritual works that I did lacked the joy that the Lord desired for me to have. I told myself over and over that we plant and others may water, but God grants the increase. That’s what kept me going searching for that one.
During this tearing down I learned to see people in Christ’s eyes. I no longer looked at them at face value but I saw works in progress by a master potter…like trees planted by the rivers of water. I saw possibility! 
It's not an easy thing to do. Oftentimes, we are used to the flesh. However, the Lord wants us to put the flesh into subjection and be led by His Spirit. We must decrease and He must increase. This is a responsibility for all men and women within the body of Christ.
As a child growing up I had a fear of pastors and ministers. I held such high esteem for them. Because I recognized my sin nature I tried to avoid them. I thought they were so Holy that they would embarrass me by calling out my sin in front of the other people in church. I felt like they knew the things I ever did wrong. I would pray in secret closets but feared going to the alter.
We shouldn't put ministers on pedestals like that. We are all distributed gifts and talents among the saints of God and we are all required to cleanse ourselves daily by the Spirit of God. We have the same responsibility to let the Spirit of God reign so that we maintain unity in the Spirit and continue to stir up the gifts of God among us. Just as the Lord shows patience and long suffering toward us, we ust equally show patience and long suffering to others within the body of Christ. Many have started with the same humility we have. However, we must maintain this humble state of being and remember our testimony. We must be living testimonies among the nation letting others know and see that very same Jesus that saved us.

- A God Chaser