YOU'RE LOST ALREADY (A COMMON FORM OF DECEPTION)

​There was an appointed time when I had been doing a great bit of work in the ministry, more actively than usual. I had consented to some speaking engagements and because of that I had more contact with demonic forces. There were some ministries I ministered within and yet when I refused to come in league with them and become a minister under them, all hell broke loose on my life. I subjected myself to a major spiritual attack which originated from a simple yes to a speaking engagement. As much as we love the Lord Jesus, we must be certain that our ministering no matter the form, is according to his will and not our own. You can say no. Don’t be afraid to say no. While I was under siege by those demonic forces, they were so strong and powerful. It was terrible. Those demonic forces that I encountered knew my strengths and my weaknesses. They brought up nearly all of the wrongs of my past, my short comings. They told me my works of righteousness had been done in vain. My husband didn’t really love me or understand me. They told me I ministered to people too harshly the times I told them to repent. I abused my authority. Jesus didn’t want me anymore. His Spirit had left because I should have had a covering.
 Nearly within the same time frame my biological father had become ill and passed away. There was a play on my emotions and the love that I had for my dad. “If you loved him, you would have prayed more. You prayed, the Lord didn’t answer. You didn’t have the power like you used to. Since your natural father is gone, your spiritual father left also. You’re a vagabond. You’re a heathen. You’re a bastard.”
Those fiery darts kept coming back-to-back with guilt and all sorts of falsehood. When I was in the midst of this battle it was a struggle to overcome the strongholds. I had to fight. I had to praise. I had to overcome. I was fighting for my own life while responsible for being the gatekeeper for the souls of others. I was almost convinced that Jesus had forsaken me and that I was lost and destined for the pit of Hell. Someone on the outside looking in would wonder how one could think such things. The spiritual warfare is real. The devastation is real. The battle for redemptions and salvation is real. This is not for entertainment. Jesus Christ is not a myth. His Holy Spirit is real. The enemy used the tactic of deception so that I wouldn’t put on my whole armor.
Some days I was convinced after not hearing the voice of God for some time, that he really did leave. There were days I didn’t praise, I said, “What’s the point, he’s not listening?” All this happened because of me. It’s my fault”, I said to myself. However, thank God for his grace and his mercy as well as his longsuffering and compassion. The more I allowed the adversary to keep shooting those fiery darts and hesitating to speak the Word of God into the atmosphere, the longer it took me to overcome and get back on the battlefield for Christ. The prayers of the righteous surely availeth much. I am a living testimony of that fact. Jesus Christ gives us choices. We must let him reign completely. I must admit that there have been several times I put some of my armor down and it caused injury and could have possibly caused casualties. I’m also grateful that the Lord gives angels charge over us to handle those battles in the spiritual realm that we don’t have strength to fight. Jesus will never leave you. He will never forsake you. Hold onto his hand and if you don’t have strength to do anything else, open your mouth and call on the name of Jesus.
II Tim 1:7-8
For God hath not given us the spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and a sound mind. Be not thou therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but thou partaker of the afflictions of the Gospel, according to the power of God.
Clearly, the Lord does not want us to be fearful. The Word states that with fear is torment. He doesn’t want us tormented. He has given us the power that comes with love and a sound mind. All three are in a package. Though, we maintain reverent fear of the Lord Jesus Christ, he doesn’t want us to be afraid or intimidated.
There is power that comes with faith in the Most High. The more faith you have, the more power you have to move in that faith. Therefore, be not ashamed of the testimony that the Lord Jesus is establishing in you. There will be many afflictions because of the Gospel wherein we are partakers. However, we walk in the power of God with the purified love of Christ. The Lord stated that he gave the Spirit of Power, Love, and a Sound Mind. The adversary will attempt to affect those three with the Spirit of Fear.
Fear can affect your soundness of mind. If you allow it. Remember, we must kill on contact those things which affect our mind of Christ. Fear, when entertained can make a person act crazy and irrational. Without the soundness of mind, you can react to situations with poor judgement which could potentially have your good evil spoken of. Let the spirit of a sound mind and purified love of Christ cast out all fear. With those three you can do all things through Christ that strengthens you and overcome. No matter what type of fear and intimidation the adversary shoots toward you, stand in the truth. In the moment of truth, you must ask yourself, “Will you remain faithful to the Most High?’ He is the author and the finisher of your faith. Don’t take down because of doubt, fear, deception, or intimidation. The overcomers shall see God. Stayed armed and dangerous! Pick up your weapons and contend for the faith.
#PICKUPYOURWEAPONS #VICTORYINBATTLE #OVERCOMERS

You’re Not Ready/Qualified (a common deceptive tactic)
We all have tests and trials for the increasing of our faith. Some trials seem greater than others, sometimes seeming like our breakthrough is farther than we can fathom. Yet, we grow leaps and bounds and overcome.
One appointed time in my life when I was weaker in the faith, I was a pastor in my youth, and I started waling in my calling, and praying for the sick, and teaching the Gospel. I had no clue of the opposition I would face simply because of my obedience to do the will and purpose of Christ. I just went forth and did what the Spirit of God led me to do. People were healed, delivered, and set free. Lives were changed for the good. While these works of faith continued to manifest, the adversary used people who were of the Christian sector to intimidate us into quitting.
 When I received an unction from the Lord Jesus to go forth and do a work, I didn’t come out of a church organization. I hadn’t been a deaconess for ten years or an assistant pastor who served up the ranking for some big bishop. There wasn’t this great ordination service. I simply answered the Voice of God. So, the form of intimidation that other pastors, apostles, and many people used was to say that I was out of order. They said God does things in decency and in order and I needed an apostle and I needed a church building. They even went so far to say that women weren’t pastors and that I was outside the will of God. Meanwhile, I just knew that I loved the Lord and I wanted to please him. I didn’t often guard my heart in those situations and because of it I often cried to the Lord. I couldn’t grasp the concept of how many people could say that they loved the Lord God and those same people could put so many restrictions on that love and the power of God that accompanied such a love during those times the Lord would minister to my Spirit and let me know that he was with me no matter the circumstance and no matter the situation. I didn’t have very many opportunities to fellowship, but the signs, miracles, and wonders that he used me to do were beyond the walls of the church, just as the days of old. Nonetheless, the work and His will was still accomplished. There were often times of discouragement and even moments of full-blown anger, but I didn’t give up, we kept trusting, seeking, and persevered through it. 
#PICKUPYOURWEAPONSANDFIGHT #OVERCOME #VICTORYINBATTLE

I JOHN 2:24-29

LET THAT THEREFORE ABIDE IN YOU, WHICH YE HAVE HEARD FROM THE BEGINNING. IF THAT WHICH YE HAVE HEARD FROM THE BEGINNING SHALL REMAIN IN YOU, YE ALSO SHALL CONTINUE IN THE SON, AND IN THE FATHER.
AND THIS IS THE PROMISE THAT HE HATH PROMISED US, EVEN ETERNAL LIFE.
THESE THINGS HAVE I WRITTEN UNTO YOU CONCERNING THEM THAT SEDUCE YOU.
BUT THE ANOINTING WHICH YOU HAVE RECEIVED OF HIM THAT ABIDETH IN YOU, AND YE NEED NOT THAT ANY MAN TEACH YOU: BUT AS THE SAME ANOINTING TEACHETH YOU ALL THINGS, AND IS TRUTH, AND IS NO LIE, AND EVEN AS IT HATH TAUGHT YOU, YE SHALL ABIDE IN HIM.
AND NOW LITTLE CHILDREN, ABIDE IN HIM; THAT, WHEN HE SHALL APPEAR, WE MAY HAVE CONFIDENCE, AND NOT BE ASHAMED BEFORE HIM AT HIS COMING.
IF YE KNOW THAT HE IS RIGHTEOUS, YE KNOW THAT EVERY ONE THAT DOETH RIGHTEOUSNESS IS BORN OF HIM.

FRIENDLY REMINDER TO KEEP THOSE THINGS NEAR AND DEAR TO YOU WHICH THE LORD JESUS CHRIST HAS ESTABLISHED IN YOU FROM THE BEGINNING. HE IS THE TRUTH. HE IS THE LIGHT AND IN HIM IS NO DARKNESS AT ALL. BE NOT DECEIVED. THERE ARE FALSE BRETHREN WHO HAVE ATTEMPTED TO CREEP IN AWARES. TRY THE SPIRITS TO KNOW WHETHER THEY ARE OF GOD. WHEN THE HOLY SPIRIT IS IN OPERATION, HE IS PURE AND HOLY. IN THE PRESENCE OF THE LORD GOD IS THE FULLNESS OF JOY. THERE IS NO “ALMOST THERE” OR “MAYBE” WHEN IT COMES TO THE MOVE OF HIS HOLY SPIRIT AND THE OPERATIONS OF HIS SPIRITUAL GIFTS. THAT’S WHAT MAKES THEM GIFTS BECAUSE OF HIS COMPLETENESS. THERE ISN’T PARTIAL HEALING OR DELIVERANCE. HE MENDED MY HEART A “LITTLE BIT”.  HE IS! HE IS COMPLETE. THERE IS NO HALF-WAY. HE IS THE AUTHOR AND THE FINISHER OF OUR FAITH. HE DOESN’T POUR HIS SPIRIT AND LEAVE CONFUSION. YOU SHALL KNOW THEM BY THEIR FRUITS. THEREFORE, BE WATCHFUL AND PRAYERFUL. SEEK HIS FACE. WALK IN TRUTH AND LOVE AND HIS SPIRIT WILL TEACH YOU WHAT THE WILL OF THE SPIRIT IS.  #PRAISEHIM #SEEKHISSPIRIT

​STRENGTH BEHIND BROKENNESS

HIDING THE BROKENNESS DEEP WITHIN
OVERCOMING THE SIN THAT ONCE HAD BEEN
LOOKING TO OBTAIN THE REWARD OF THE RACE
I KEEP SEEKING AFTER HIS HOLY FACE

SATURATE ME IN YOUR SPIRIT
I WANT TO BE TRIED AND TRUE
REIGN YOUR REFINING FIRE
SO THAT I’M MOLDED MORE LIKE YOU

NO MORE REPROACH FROM THOSE WHO DON’T UNDERSTAND,
YOU ARE THE ONE WITH THE FAN IN HIS HAND
HE’S PURGING HIS FLOOR, THERE’S WORK TO BE DONE
YET, WE KEEP FIGHTING KNOWING THE BATTLE HAS BEEN WON.

​SEEKING, SEEKING, SEEKING
FOR A WAY DEEP WITHIN, WITHIN, WITHIN
A WORD, A SONG, AN EXPRESSION
OF HOW TO SHOW FORTH THE CRAVING, THE PASSION,
THE HUNGER, THE LONGING TO BE AFTER YOUR OWN HEART,
TO GRASP A GLIMPSE OF THE EYES THAT HAVE BEEN MY GUIDE
FOLLOWING, FOLLOWING HARD AFTER THEE
DRIVEN BY HOPE AND THE POSSIBILITY OF WHAT CAN BE
SHOW ME HOW TO STAY THE APPLE OF THINE EYE
OH MY DARLING, DARLING, LET ME PLEAD MY CAUSE WITH THEE
THE DESPERATION IS NO MATCH FOR ME AND CANNOT CONTAIN ME
TEACH ME THE HEIGHTS OF YOUR LOVE  O’ LORD
O’ LET THE GLORY OF YOUR HOLINESS COME BURSTING FORTH FROM WITHIN
A PLACE, A PLACE OF WORSHIP I PREPARE
NOT JUST ANY PLACE, A SECRET PLACE IT IS
THE HOUSE THAT YOU BUILT O’ LORD
AND CALLED IT MY HEART.